My mind

Trying to pull me under the cold dark water
Your sharp claws can't break through my skin
I am much stronger than you think
My mind is protected my my heart and soul

You think you can play with me like a toy
But i am brave enough to take you on
And you can't pull me under with you
I'm too strong for you to do that to me

No, i will not succumb under your spell
Fighting with my own mind is difficult
It's like a never ending war zone
But I will win, even if it is a challenge

Everlasting love

I can hear your heartbeat
From a thousand miles away
The echo of our love
Takes my breath away

You are my one and only
My everlasting true love
On my mind and in my soul
Without you, just an empty shell

My love for you, true and pure
Our endless love will never fade
You are my object of affection
My heart belongs to you

Altered dream

I am in a foreign place
Lost, misplaced and not found yet
To learn how to heal my soul again

Why haven't I learned a thing

You have broken my trust

But you can not break me

Time for healing this heart

Why haven't I healed it yet

My view of life is so obscure

Not clearly understood and faint

Lost in an altered dreaming state

Of how things are supposed to be

Suck the heartache from my eyes

Replace it with safekeeping of my heart

Loving you is the right thing to do

I'll open up, waiting here for you

Open door

Beneath the open starry sky
We dance, then say goodbye
I crave to hear you say those words
The words you've never said before

You walk into the distance
The space growing bigger between us
I want to feel you close to me
And I will never let you go again

Standing in front of the door
Come in and surrender yourself
To my love, affection and acceptance
I let you in and hope you will stay

You stand in the smokey room
Your eyes pierce through my soul
Will I ever be good enough for you
I try to convince myself that I am

One moment, one look, three words
You put your hands on my shoulders
And whisper the words I want to hear
Your heart forever belongs to me

Walk with me

You with your tearstained eyes
I want to take all your pain away
Make you believe in yourself again
Take my hand and I'll lead the way

Come with me to a place of dreams
It will make you feel worth something again
Life will never be trouble free
But will get better, just come with me

Keep going trough life without pausing
Life is a never ending roller coaster ride
You must just learn to believe in yourself
So take my hand and walk with me

Pill

You take my being human away
This beast that enters my body
You make me shiver and shake
You make my head all cloudy
Yet you are the one that keeps me sane
Helps me cope with this dark scary world
Is this what normal feels like?
No, I think this is being crazy

You

Your eyes they pierce right through me
Knowing my deepest of darkest secrets
I surrender myself to you and your presence
You make me free myself from the darkness

Telling you all my thoughts and dreams
That's what I want from you, and you alone
The walls surrounding me are high and thick
And only you are the one I want to let in

Yet your thoughts are sometimes far from me
Break through my walls, I'll let you in
The darkness will turn into bright red sun
Bruised and bleeding, yet ready to heal

Silver lined clouds

You catch me like a habit without a blink
Your claws burning through my skin
Hearing the deafening wind in my sensitive ears
As you take me away to another place
Throw me down to a cracking of concrete
Hearing it break, as you force me to my knees
I am a captive of my own dark thoughts
Hues of reality vanish in a darkened mass
Holding me down, blood stained knees
This mind of mine is an ice cold place
Stealing my mind from the cage I've made
You will never stop, until you see me drop
But I will not succumb to your ice cold grip
I will not surrender to you, my dark mind
I can see the silver lined clouds in the distance
Struggling my way to freedom from your big claws

Beautiful to me

You are my light
My beautiful princess
Never out of my sight
My blood and flesh

All your little giggles
So beautiful for me
All you little wiggles
I want to see

Your playful wakeful eyes
Your innocent little mind
Thinking I'm so wise
You are my child, so kind

Vase

Driving me crazy
These thoughts in my head
Will not stop, until I'm dead

Rose petals on the floor
Blood stained glass
Fragile broken vase

Soul

Written in stars bright as daylight
The darkness of my mind in sight
The doors to my soul closed
For all except the proposed

I bear my soul and my heart
Yet I might be nothing but a chart
My soul is black like the chilling night
And yet I'm just a thought with no flight

Want to be the center of you universe
Yet I feel like I am just your curse
The centre of my heart you are
Yet I feel that you are so far

Seasons

In the deepest of rivers
And the darkest of seas
I want to lie there awake
Until I live again
And if I don't wake
A better place this would be
What I've become is dead to me
Losing all that is dear to me
The rivers will sweep away all the tears
The oceans will drown all the sorrow
Everything have a season
Some just end sooner than other
The season is over, it is done
Until the life I am craving comes

If only people knew

If only people knew

If only people could understand me

The complexity of my disabled mind

I feel lost in my own disabled mind

As i try to figure my own life out

If only people knew the real me

But at the same time, I don't either

I am misunderstood, miss dont't know any good

Fighting my way trhough this "beautiful" mess

 They think they know me, think they understand

All these feelings drifting in my heart

I try to be the very best i can be

But it's not enough for them, or me